Of note

HEY YOU!!!!!!

MY name's Kait.... I kinda a big deal

...local celebrity, and all, right?...

I'm 19 years old and very confused (Life is confusing).

I love many different things.

I can spontaneously give a speech on anything (won many competitions!)

Singing is my favorite.

(Put me on stage, I get excited!)

But I also adore pictures...and I like modeling for them too.

Clothes is awesome. Clothes!

Somehow I got a little beauty and a little brains....and I don't do much with either.

'Cause I'm in school, you know, but just gliding by.

I hate being mediocre, unimpressive grades, so far I haven't tried enough

(I'm trying to fix that)

Nursing wasn't my desire, but it's good in it's on way

The way of people, caring, and a nice fat salary....

What I admire: genuineness, intelligence, chivalry, dedication, funness, spontaneity, surprises, conversation skills, cologne, good looks (I'm honest!), love, caring, talent, loves children.

What I loathe: averageness, sloth, vagueness, rudeness, driving too slow, unkempt appearance, long nose hairs (true story!), boring.

Smiling is my favorite, too. And when I hear someone laugh

I love joining in.

People's sadness affects me as well...

Other people's problems I can feel in my heart

along with their joy.

I hate being angry. Especially at someone I love.

I rarely am...yet when it happens I feel like a demon and nothing can reason.

The worst thing is how destructive I can be.

Ripping myself apart is mechanical and easy.

With all I love to create, and draw, and sing, and act, and model, and see beauty

I still can hurt. (there's no middle ground/neutrality)

I wish to be the best.

I desire more than I deserve, and fail grasping

Uncertainties are even more hellish

Yet

I love you

I love you very much.

I want you to have a wonderful life!

That's the most sincerest feeling I have

that I want you to have everything you dream.

And I won't stop that, ever.

And sometimes I wonder if I dreamed you up to start with, and just kept on dreaming

And sometimes reality is skewed

idk

idc

Sincerely,

yours truly