I'm not the one that you want, I'll only let you down.
And I'm pretty sure that you've caught on.
And you can say that 'Oh, I'm just feeling sorry for myself.'
I think it's every time I walk into a room
a silence so sudden that I seem to hear it (smiles turn to frowns)
Or maybe it's all eyes on him, in love with ego and intention.
The eyes that are just begging me for more -
This is gone and I can see it.
Your head is full of words, full of words that don't mean anything.
I'm not the one that you want, I'll always let you down.
And I'm pretty sure that you've caught on.
And you can say that 'Oh, I'm just feeling sorry for myself'
(If that's how you feel, then what's there to do?
I'll keep this feeling in my heart
but when you look in my eyes, you will know the truth.)
Spelled out your name and list the reasons.
A million hours left to think of you.
I can't untangle
I can't untangle what I feel and what would matter most
I can't get close and I, I can't get close
And now there's just no point, in reaching out for me
In the dark, I'm just no good at giving relief
In the dark, It won't be easy to find relief
And I'm not proud that nothing will seem easy about me
But I promise this I won't go my whole life telling you "I don't need..."
I'll tell you now, I guess like I should have told you then
Without you is how I disappear.
-Such a paradox, isn't it, isn't it?
I dropped all of my lovers.
I stood up and screamed 'I'm in love!'
You gave it to me through the eyes, hatred.
Centuries deep and true. I was wrong, graceless, and sick.
All of the things that I had learned had been wasted.
There was no living creature as foul as I,
and all of my poems were false.
I could feel my soul, dropping down through the mattress.
I had to leap up before it hit the floor.
and I'm so alone.
Illumination held out in front of my reaching arms.
The darker things get the better I see.
I'm so alone and so are you,
we all live and die that way.
I feel weak.
Thrown in wide open spaces.
We turn ourselves inside out,
expose what we're afraid to see.
You haven't seen how far down I can sink.
Tell me that you know another way to get it done
It's not me or how I would be but it's a different situation
You lay awake in the night
Just staring at the ceiling above
Pulling pieces of it out is such a waste of time
Keep on fighting to remember that nothing is lost in the end
When you burn burn burn your life down
Get me to the door
Out of bed on the track
I'm not sure starting over
It's a different situation
Undeserving of your sympathy
'Cause there ain't no way that I'm sorry for what I did
Through it all, could you cry for me?
'Cause I don't feel bad about it
So shut your eyes, kiss me goodbye
And sleep.
The hardest part is letting go of your dreams.
So nothing will be lost in the end
And you burn burn burn your life down
I break my heart around this
Break my heart around this
-Chiodos, My Chemical Romance, Tegan and Sara
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